I am grateful to be…

Today is the beginning of my new life
I am starting over today
All good things are coming to me today
I am grateful to be alive
I see beauty all around me
I live with passion and purpose
I take time to laugh and play everyday
I am awake, energized and alive
I focus on all the good things in life
And give thanks for them
I am at peace and one with everything
I feel the love, the joy, the abudance
I am free to be myself
I am magnificence in human form
I am the perfection of life
I am grateful to be…
ME.

Today is the best day of my life.

I promise myself

To be so strong that nothing can disturb my peace of mind.
To talk health, happiness, and prosperity to every person I meet.
To make all my friends feel that there is something worthwhile in them.
To look at the sunny side of everything and make my optimism come true.
To think only of the best, to work only for the best
and to expect only the best.
To be just as enthusiastic about the success of
others as I am about my own.
To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the
greater achievements of the future.
To wear a cheerful expression at all times and give a smile
to every living creature I meet.
To give so much time to improving myself that I
have no time to criticize others.
To be too large for worry; too noble for anger, too strong for fear,
and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.
To think well of myself and to proclaim this fact to the world,
not in loud words, but in great deeds.
To live in the faith that the whole world is on my side,
so long as Iam true to the best that is in me.

Christian D. Larson

Leona Lewis – Better In Time

It’s been the longest winter without you
I didn’t know where to turn to
See somehow I can’t forget you
After all that we’ve been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who’s there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realise that I really didn’t know
If you didn’t notice you mean everything
Quickly I’m learning to love again
All I know is I’ma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too
It’ll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I’m gonna smile cause I deserve to
It’ll all get better in time

I couldn’t turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I’m dreaming don’t wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that’s the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn’t notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I’m learning to love again
All I know is I’ma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too
It’ll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I’m gonna smile cause I deserve to
It’ll all get better in time

Since there’s no more you and me
It’s time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I’ll be fine without you
Yes I will

[Chorus: x2]
Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too
It’ll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I’m gonna smile cause I deserve to
It’ll all get better in time

The All-American Rejects – It Ends Tonight

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can’t explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don’t want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My mind’s unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can’t explain what you can’t explain.
Your finding things that you didn’t know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing
My mind’s unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

[Chorus]
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight
Won’t make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Now I’m on my own side
It’s better than being on your side
It’s my fault when your blind
It’s better than I see it through your eyes
All these thoughts locked inside
Now you’re the first to know

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won’t make this right,
It’s too late to fight,
It ends tonight,
It ends when darkness turns to light
It ends tonight
It ends tonight, just a little insight
Won’t make this right, it’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight,
Tonight,
Insight,
When darkness turns to light it ends tonight

just a girl

So, here’s my question. What makes me so damn wonderful? I’m nothing. Honestly. I’m just another girl, doing what she can to make believe happiness. And, it’s not working. But, somehow I managed to convince everyone around me that I am. And they say they love me. But, how can they? What they see isn’t me. It’s what I pretend to be, because its what I’m told to be. But, I’m not happy. I’m not nice. I’m mean. I’m evil. I say things and do things that hurt myself and hurt people. Deliberately. Because, I can. And because it’s supposed to make them all leave me alone so I don’t have to pretend anymore, but they don’t leave. No, instead they continue to believe I’m happy, perky. When I smile they believe me. When I laugh they think it’s real. And they think they love me. But, they don’t know me. They know who I pretend to be. But, how do you love something that’s not real?

This is who I am

I don’t know when it happened, or even how it happened. But it did. I grew up. And with growing up I grew apart. I’m not one of you anymore. I’m my own person. And I’m alone. You live in this happy world together, and I’m on the outside looking in. My seasons are completely different from yours. When the sun shines on you the rain pours on me. Your laughter is my sorrow. I don’t feel things the way you do. I don’t respond to things the way you do. I’m sorry. I can’t help it. This is who I am.

no such thing

People keep telling me that maybe it’d be better if we got back together. Maybe it would be. I know I would be so happy if we did. But my endings never end happy anymore. Because in my life, there’s no such thing as forever, and there’s no such thing as love, or happily-ever-after. There’s attraction and there’s stirred emotion, but no true love, and no forever. Perhaps he did love me, and maybe everything he said, he really meant. But however it all goes down, it all comes down to the fact that ‘forever’ doesn’t exist. And true love it actually works in the reverse. you must first be who you really are, then do what you need to do, in order to have what you want